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Letter To An "Enlightened" Being This is a copy of a letter I wrote to a woman who realized consciousness some years prior. With all due respect to her and her awakened viewpoint, I found myself in our e-mail conversations becoming increasingly irritated with her subconscious insinuations that we were ruining her the world by allowing thoughts of anything but pure light and bliss, and with her happy-go-lucky attitude that would admit nothing of the Core Wound, nor of anything that is serious or inclusive of the dark side of Being. She also didn't seem to care much if she hurt anyone else's feelings, only that life is blissful and should be filled with laughter and happiness. So if my reply to her below sounds a bit testy to you, it's because that's exactly how I was feeling. Dear Z, Well, I'm not holding out much hope that you'll be able to understand where I'm coming from. Nor that it's of any importance to you to do so, which is more the issue. My impression is that you are unwittingly standing behind your realization, using it as a bright shield. From your side of the picture, everything looks fine. Why should you allow the darker side of life to actually affect you, especially if such allowing would jeopardize your bliss? Good question. If bliss and joy are more important to you than a full participation in divinely human reality, you have no reason to permit pain in your awareness. Enjoy your bliss! May it last as long as possible. But if someday a crack begins to appear, and you find yourself in need of real depth, let's talk. We are not, as you characterized us, "living life seriously with a long face". We do not build atom bombs, nor propagate greed. We teach and radiate a kind of love that this world has never seen before. It is a love that directly liberates others into their own realization of their own divinely human avatarship. You do not understand what we are doing, because you think you are "enlightened" and we are not. And indeed, you have realized consciousness. But that is just the start, a kind of baby step. There is a profound realization beyond that, which requires a different kind of courage to face. It requires a need to go beyond the bliss you have discovered. You will not have that need until you begin to rot away from your unconscious efforts to fend off the Core Wound. The Core Wound is the primal discomfort inherent in living as the intersection of Absolute and Relative. What I'm trying to say is that sooner or later the pain of your own existence which lies at the point where consciousness meets your bodymind will begin to make itself obvious. The more you avoid it, thinking that you have no need or reason to allow any discomfort in your life, the more you are avoiding the gateway into a far deeper truth and realization. Your version of "love" sounds very flat to me; it allows only bright, shiny, happy faces, good feelings, positive outlooks and outcomes, laughter and light. To me, that is not real love. That is a filtered, rosy version of love. It is a dangerously limited and limiting viewpoint that requires a lot of unconscious energy to sustain. It forces a positive overlay onto life as it actually is in order to feel better and avoid encountering a deeper truth that you have spent your whole life glossing over. To you, allowing the totality of life as it is, with all its dark and light, pain and joy, seems to equate with misery. If that is your truth, so be it. To me, there is no higher joy than to participate in the entire picture of reality that I truly am. I am God, living here as Ted. I am all dark and all light. I am consciousness and phenomenon in sacred marriage. I am all things and all non-things. Your view that seriousness is a barrier to full self realization is based, quite understandably, on your own experience. But ... you are missing something very big. And your version of self-realization is, in my experience, incomplete and dangerously in avoidance of a far greater reality which you are ill-prepared to notice or admit. I myself have lived in your state, in your realization. I know its bliss, its confidence. I understand its parameters and its limitations. I wish you much luck and good fortune. May you dance on the tongue of the great Beloved until such time as you are ready to realize that you yourself ARE the Beloved in human incarnation. May you enjoy your state of "no-self" until the divine personality, the Self of All Selves, finds its way into the right side of your heart. Love, Ted |
